frustration

It has been such a weird day!!  I don't know how to express the weirdness of this day.  But my thoughts as I sit down (preparing to do homework) are about people.  I have such mixed feelings about people currently.

People frustrate me!  I am so taken back by people and behaviors.  How do you say one thing and act a completely different way?  I suppose I do it too, although I strive my hardest not to - I have always been taught that actions speak louder than words.  But seriously, I am losing patience.  I have noticed that I don't put up with a whole lot anymore.  I can't let myself.  I don't like being walked all over.  I don't like people treating me two different ways - I am the same person with the same feelings whether I am around people or riding solo.

At the same time though, I love people.  I have a sincere love for people.  I want to love, and care, and help, and support, and uplift, and be with people.

So I find myself in a predicament.  Why do I continually find people in life that make me so ... disheartened.  I am working on finding a happy medium, but it is more difficult than it sounds.  I need to learn to let go; I don't do this very well.  I don't like to give up.  People give up so easily.  Too easily.  Sometimes before they even begin something.

I think I figured it out - MAN UP!  [I do include myself in this most days.]  But seriously.  Man up.  Do something on a whim.  Tell people how you honestly feel.  Do what you feel - address how you feel and don't set your feelings on the back burner.  Be a friend.  Love.  Let people in.  Have faith.  Act.

"And now as I said concerning faith - faith is not to have a perfect knowledge of things; therefore if ye have faith ye hope for things which are not seen, which are true." Alma 32:31

We cannot know if something is right until we act on it 100% with full purpse of heart.  Experiment!  Have a little faith.  All will work out - IF and WHEN we do all we can do.  The Lord guides us every step of the way.  We just need to be open to taking chances, risking a little, stepping into the darkness on things we are unsure of sometimes.  For He is, "merciful unto all who believe on his name." (Alma 32:22)  If you desire something, GO FOR IT.